Truth is, I have never made a New Year's Resolution. I have made resolutions, or decisions, or commitments to myself, whatever you'd like to call them, just never on December 31st.
But I like the idea of the New Year's Resolution. I like the psychological mind trick of an official "start date." I like the gravity of what seems like such an important promise. I like the aspect of making a public declaration of your intentions.
I also think that all of those things just mentioned can make it all too big. Too overwhelming. Too all or nothing. Too easy to give up on because, hey, no one sticks to their New Year's Resolution, right?
So here's my advice if you think you want to, or need to, make a commitment to get healthier in 2013.
1. Make it about being healthier, not about being skinnier. Skinnier will happen as a byproduct of healthier. And being healthy sounds like a more attainable goal. It means any steps you take toward better eating or more movement "count" and you get a check in the win column, fueling your desire to continue. If, conversely, you want to get skinnier and don't lose anything in the first two weeks or lose very few, your head starts doubting and that spells disaster.
2. Make small, achieveable goals. You are highly unlikely to go from no working out to a two-hour session, seven days a week. But would 30 minutes three times a week seem more doable? Would parking in the farthest spot in the parking lot be OK? Would 10 minutes of butt lifts fit in during 30 minutes of sitcom watching? I think so. Would two days a week of healthier meals with reasonable portions work? Would cutting out fast food for one week feel possible? Would saving sweets for weekend be feasible? It just sounds easier.
3. Write it down. Or share it with someone. Better yet, find someone to be your partner in crime. Declare it here in the comments section! It's not quite as real if it lives only in your head.
4. Understand that there will be ups and downs. You will fall off the proverbial horse. Prepare yourself for WHAT YOU DO NEXT, because that's what counts. Tell yourself now that you are going to climb right back in the saddle and do it. The shorter the distance between the fall and the back on your feet, the greater the chance you have of succeeding.
5. Do more of what makes you feel good, REALLY GOOD, and less of what makes you feel bad. Eating a cookie every now and again feels good because you know it's a treat, you've earned it, and it's not hurting you. Eating cookies every day makes you feel like you failed and it leads to you beating yourself up. You know the difference. Getting up at 5 a.m. to take a walk can sort of suck because who doesn't want to stay in bed? But two hours later, that early rise and activity will make you feel 10 times better than the flipping, flopping and regret that comes with the extra 30 minutes of sleep.
My resolutions are in the comments. Feel free to add yours. We won't tell a soul if you don't want us to, but we'll support you all the way there.
Happy New Year!!!!
Monday, December 31, 2012
Sunday, December 30, 2012
Simple Chip Dip
We're having some people over today and I needed some munchie stuff to go along with the main-event pizza. The credit for this one goes to my sister. Again. I've adapted it a bit, but the core idea is hers.
She whipped it out at a lovely graduation picnic for a certain Venezuelan friend years ago and I had almost forgotten about it until I was standing in front of my fridge this morning, scanning its contents, hoping for inspiration.
This is easy, fast, yummy and not so horrible for you.
Jalapeno Dip
1 8 oz. package of reduced fat cream cheese (Neufisoithghagal or however they spell that), at room temperature
1 jalapeno pepper, finely diced
2 or 3 big spoonfuls of light sour cream
1t-ish garlic powder
Mix. Eat. Of course you can use full fat or 0 fat cream cheese and sour cream. You can serve it warm in one of those little crock pot things, but I like it at room temp. You can skip the sour cream altogether, but I like it because it loosens up the mixture a little and doesn't break a Jay's chip when you dunk it. Serve with straight up potato chips or pretzels or raw veg, if you like.
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Mexi-Side Chopped Salad
Those of you who know me or have been to my house know my fall-back meal for entertaining, particularly for a crowd, is some sort of Mexican taco bar. Sometimes it's straight-up American-style tacos, sometimes it's Tinga and one of these days I'm going to tackle carnitas.
And while I love the ease, convenience and deliciousness of Mexican food, I struggle sometimes with what to serve WITH it. Yeah, I made guac and salsa. And there's always rice and beans. But that's all so heavy and not-so-good for you. As such, I'm always looking for a veg-based side that "matches" the Mexican idea. (My resident Mexican expert says vegetable side dishes aren't as prevalent in her mother-in-law's kitchen as they are in typical meat-starch-veg American meals, complicating the mission.)
So when I ran across this recipe, I marked it. Then made some tweaks. I made it yesterday and like it. Better for summer than winter, to be sure, but still good.
Mexi-Veg with Lime Cilantro Vinaigrette
Salad:
2c corn kernels
1c chopped jicama
3/4 to 1c chopped red onion
1c chopped red (or yellow or green) pepper
1/2 c black olives, chopped
1c crumbled queso fresco
1 jalapeno, seeded, finely chopped
1 avocado, chopped
Dressing:
1/8c freshly squeezed lime juice
Zest of 1 lime
1/8c rice wine vinegar
1/4 to 1/2c canola oil (Classic oil to vinegar ratio for a simple dressing is 3:1, but I think it's too heavy for this dressing. So this is a 1:1 or 2:1. But you know what you like ... adjust to your personal tastes.)
1 to 2T minced garlic
1 to 2T minced cilantro
1t salt
1t sugar
Dump all the chopped salad stuff in a big bowl. Add other veg if you like them or take away what you don't like. Celery or even water chestnuts would be a good swap for the jicama, but I prefer the jicama. I keep an old salsa jar and mix the dressing in that. Shake, shake, shake to mix. Adjust the salt and sugar to taste. I don't always need all of the dressing ... but if you make the salad a day ahead, having a little extra dressing on hand is good because sometimes you need to add it before serving.
And while I love the ease, convenience and deliciousness of Mexican food, I struggle sometimes with what to serve WITH it. Yeah, I made guac and salsa. And there's always rice and beans. But that's all so heavy and not-so-good for you. As such, I'm always looking for a veg-based side that "matches" the Mexican idea. (My resident Mexican expert says vegetable side dishes aren't as prevalent in her mother-in-law's kitchen as they are in typical meat-starch-veg American meals, complicating the mission.)
So when I ran across this recipe, I marked it. Then made some tweaks. I made it yesterday and like it. Better for summer than winter, to be sure, but still good.
Mexi-Veg with Lime Cilantro Vinaigrette
Salad:
2c corn kernels
1c chopped jicama
3/4 to 1c chopped red onion
1c chopped red (or yellow or green) pepper
1/2 c black olives, chopped
1c crumbled queso fresco
1 jalapeno, seeded, finely chopped
1 avocado, chopped
Dressing:
1/8c freshly squeezed lime juice
Zest of 1 lime
1/8c rice wine vinegar
1/4 to 1/2c canola oil (Classic oil to vinegar ratio for a simple dressing is 3:1, but I think it's too heavy for this dressing. So this is a 1:1 or 2:1. But you know what you like ... adjust to your personal tastes.)
1 to 2T minced garlic
1 to 2T minced cilantro
1t salt
1t sugar
Dump all the chopped salad stuff in a big bowl. Add other veg if you like them or take away what you don't like. Celery or even water chestnuts would be a good swap for the jicama, but I prefer the jicama. I keep an old salsa jar and mix the dressing in that. Shake, shake, shake to mix. Adjust the salt and sugar to taste. I don't always need all of the dressing ... but if you make the salad a day ahead, having a little extra dressing on hand is good because sometimes you need to add it before serving.
Friday, December 28, 2012
Holiday Carrots
I made these for the first time Tuesday and really liked them. They're a little more special than everyday glazed carrots and would be good, I think, for Thanksgiving/Christmas or Easter holidays.
Orange Ginger Maple Glazed Carrots
1 lb. baby carrots
1/2 cup fresh orange juice (though I'm sure regular orange juice from concentrate or a bottle would work) ... this worked out to 1.5 naval oranges for me, BTW
Zest from 1 orange
1 T (or a big spoonful) of grated ginger (I keep a jar of prepared stuff in my fridge ... it's sold by the chopped garlic in a jar in my grocery store)
2-ish T of real maple syrup
1-2T butter
Salt to taste
In a large, shallow skillet, dump carrots and cover them with water. Bring to boil and let them bubble away until they're done to the texture you like. I like mine with a little snap in them. My mom likes hers mushy. Drain. In the same pan, add juice, ginger, syrup and butter. Let it bubble away and reduce. As it reduces, the liquid gets more syrup-y and glazes the carrots. Add the zest about halfway through. Before serving, add some chopped fresh parsley to make it pretty.
Orange Ginger Maple Glazed Carrots
1 lb. baby carrots
1/2 cup fresh orange juice (though I'm sure regular orange juice from concentrate or a bottle would work) ... this worked out to 1.5 naval oranges for me, BTW
Zest from 1 orange
1 T (or a big spoonful) of grated ginger (I keep a jar of prepared stuff in my fridge ... it's sold by the chopped garlic in a jar in my grocery store)
2-ish T of real maple syrup
1-2T butter
Salt to taste
In a large, shallow skillet, dump carrots and cover them with water. Bring to boil and let them bubble away until they're done to the texture you like. I like mine with a little snap in them. My mom likes hers mushy. Drain. In the same pan, add juice, ginger, syrup and butter. Let it bubble away and reduce. As it reduces, the liquid gets more syrup-y and glazes the carrots. Add the zest about halfway through. Before serving, add some chopped fresh parsley to make it pretty.
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
Tired of Eating
It really is a good thing the holidays come but once a year.
As Jim and I were cleaning up the remnants of our big family meal last night ... after all the company had left, after all the leftovers had been tossed, frozen or repackaged, after all the dishes were done ... I asked him what he wanted me to bundle up for his lunches.
His response?
"Nothing. I'm tired of eating."
I couldn't have said it better myself.
The fridge is stuffed to overflowing, as is the freezer. There are still cookies in Tupperware in the garage. And none of it even sounds good anymore.
Today was a welcomed day of clean eating. Had to get it in before the weekend fires up with more merriment. It just feels good to feed your body the stuff it needs. It helps put your head in the right spot ...
Feeling good about what you did today makes tomorrow easier.
As Jim and I were cleaning up the remnants of our big family meal last night ... after all the company had left, after all the leftovers had been tossed, frozen or repackaged, after all the dishes were done ... I asked him what he wanted me to bundle up for his lunches.
His response?
"Nothing. I'm tired of eating."
I couldn't have said it better myself.
The fridge is stuffed to overflowing, as is the freezer. There are still cookies in Tupperware in the garage. And none of it even sounds good anymore.
Today was a welcomed day of clean eating. Had to get it in before the weekend fires up with more merriment. It just feels good to feed your body the stuff it needs. It helps put your head in the right spot ...
Feeling good about what you did today makes tomorrow easier.
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
Merry Christmas, CC Readers!
I hope your stockings were full of the things that matter: love, family, friendship, laughter, hope and faith.
And I hope your bellies were full of the wonderful, delicious things that come around once a year (and should be enjoyed as such).
Like gingerbread. And red wine. Yum.
(They both tend to make all that family and love stuff even more bearable. KIDDING, family and loves! KIDDING.)
And I hope your bellies were full of the wonderful, delicious things that come around once a year (and should be enjoyed as such).
Like gingerbread. And red wine. Yum.
(They both tend to make all that family and love stuff even more bearable. KIDDING, family and loves! KIDDING.)
Sunday, December 23, 2012
Muscle, Man
Confession: I have changed my early morning TV habits. I used to watch Charlotte and Starbuck on the CBS early morning show. But when I'm on my bike, I have to put the closed caption on and read the dialogue and it loses some of its charm that way. So I discovered The Nate Berkus Show, Rachel Ray and Oprah reruns on OWN, beginning at 5 a.m.
What does this mean to you?
Unfortunately it means that I see more of Dr. Oz than is probably healthy. He' s a frequent guest on Rachel and Oprah.And he's full of tidbits that may or may not be horribly helpful ... but they're occasionally interesting. Which means I have snippets of information to regurgitate to you.
Feel free to groan.
Here's something I learned yesterday.
The question was posed, "Why do men lose weight more easily than women? Why does it seem like they can lose it faster? Is it a myth or is it true?"
First, Dr. Oz says it's true. Men do lose weight faster and easier. And it happens because they have more muscles. Muscles "burn" more calories than fat.
In other words, if there's a muscle-y person and a fat person, sitting still, side by side, DOING NOTHING AT ALL, the muscle-y person will burn more calories while just sitting there than the person with a higher percentage of body fat.
So you're following, right? Men have more muscles than women do. Therefore, they burn more calories doing absolutely nothing than we do.
The lucky bastards.
The good doctor also went on to say that lifting weights is so important for women of a certain age. (Like, say, mid 40s, ahem.) That's when your metabolism starts slowing down, when you stop making as much testosterone. More exercise and eating right can't compensate for that slowdown, which is why it's so hard to lose weight after 40. But strength training can help offset the slowdown.
So, I'm upping my strength training. I'm choosing to view it as "extra credit" ... something that works for me after I've quite working out. More reps. More weight. More days per week.
(And for the record, lifting weights will NOT make you look like this. Steroids and complete obsession makes you look like this. Or worse ... Google female body builders images sometime. Downright freaky, IMHO.)
What does this mean to you?
Unfortunately it means that I see more of Dr. Oz than is probably healthy. He' s a frequent guest on Rachel and Oprah.And he's full of tidbits that may or may not be horribly helpful ... but they're occasionally interesting. Which means I have snippets of information to regurgitate to you.
Feel free to groan.
Here's something I learned yesterday.
The question was posed, "Why do men lose weight more easily than women? Why does it seem like they can lose it faster? Is it a myth or is it true?"
First, Dr. Oz says it's true. Men do lose weight faster and easier. And it happens because they have more muscles. Muscles "burn" more calories than fat.
In other words, if there's a muscle-y person and a fat person, sitting still, side by side, DOING NOTHING AT ALL, the muscle-y person will burn more calories while just sitting there than the person with a higher percentage of body fat.
So you're following, right? Men have more muscles than women do. Therefore, they burn more calories doing absolutely nothing than we do.
The lucky bastards.
The good doctor also went on to say that lifting weights is so important for women of a certain age. (Like, say, mid 40s, ahem.) That's when your metabolism starts slowing down, when you stop making as much testosterone. More exercise and eating right can't compensate for that slowdown, which is why it's so hard to lose weight after 40. But strength training can help offset the slowdown.
So, I'm upping my strength training. I'm choosing to view it as "extra credit" ... something that works for me after I've quite working out. More reps. More weight. More days per week.
(And for the record, lifting weights will NOT make you look like this. Steroids and complete obsession makes you look like this. Or worse ... Google female body builders images sometime. Downright freaky, IMHO.)
Friday, December 21, 2012
Internet Diagnosis
I love the World Wide Web. You can learn so much. Tonight I set out in search of the cause of my knee pain.
And I have diagnosed myself with Chodromalacia or patello femoral pain syndrome or runner's knee. I believe the ligaments aren't moving properly over my kneecap, causing pain. The pain is worse when I'm sitting with my knees bent or lying down with my legs curled up, and honestly not that bad when I'm actually running.
Treatment? Rest, ibuprofen and quad strengthening exercises. The good news is that you can't really hurt it more by running.
So that's that. I ran 4 miles this morning, the farthest I've gone for a few weeks. And it felt so good. I'm paying for it now, but them's the breaks. Who needs kidneys? There are people at the Advil factory that are very happy to have my support.
And I have diagnosed myself with Chodromalacia or patello femoral pain syndrome or runner's knee. I believe the ligaments aren't moving properly over my kneecap, causing pain. The pain is worse when I'm sitting with my knees bent or lying down with my legs curled up, and honestly not that bad when I'm actually running.
Treatment? Rest, ibuprofen and quad strengthening exercises. The good news is that you can't really hurt it more by running.
So that's that. I ran 4 miles this morning, the farthest I've gone for a few weeks. And it felt so good. I'm paying for it now, but them's the breaks. Who needs kidneys? There are people at the Advil factory that are very happy to have my support.
Thursday, December 20, 2012
Southwest Turkey Meatloaf and Mexican Fried Rice
We snuggled in today; watched it snow. Also made the mistake of making the Caramel (Crack) Chex Mix and frosted some cut-out cookies.
After a day of eating sugar, it seemed like a healthy spin on a wholesome comfort food was in order for dinner.
Here's what I came up with. Best of all, Jim loved it. "I haven't eaten anything since breakfast, you know," he grinned by way of explaining why he went back for seconds.
Southwest Turkey Meatloaf
1 lb. ground turkey
1 small red onion, finely chopped
1/2 can drained black beans
Cumin, Tajin, salt to taste
Taco or enchilada sauce
Mix everything except for the taco sauce together and put it in a small loaf pan or just make a pile on a cookie sheet. Spread the taco or enchilada sauce on top (as you would ketchup on regular meatloaf.) Bake at 350 degrees until internal temp reaches 165 degrees. You could add an egg and whole wheat bread crumbs if you wanted. But I didn't.
Mexican Fried Rice
Olive oil
1/4-ish cup diced onion
1t minced garlic
1t to 1T diced jalapeno
Leftover rice (brown preferably)
1/2 can black beans
1/2 cup frozen corn kernels
1 small tomato, chopped
Leftover Taco sauce thinned with water
Pepperjack or queso fresco
This is a chop and drop. Olive oil in pan, onions in first until translucent. Then add the garlic and pepper. Season with salt to taste. Add the rice and let it heat through. Put enough of the taco sauce in to make it a little juicy. (I used store bought taco sauce and don't like all the salt in it. So I use just a little and then add some water to help it along.) Add the beans and corn, letting it heat through before you add the tomatoes. I also tossed in a smidge of pepperjack in at the end, but you don't need the cheese at all.
After a day of eating sugar, it seemed like a healthy spin on a wholesome comfort food was in order for dinner.
Here's what I came up with. Best of all, Jim loved it. "I haven't eaten anything since breakfast, you know," he grinned by way of explaining why he went back for seconds.
Southwest Turkey Meatloaf
1 lb. ground turkey
1 small red onion, finely chopped
1/2 can drained black beans
Cumin, Tajin, salt to taste
Taco or enchilada sauce
Mix everything except for the taco sauce together and put it in a small loaf pan or just make a pile on a cookie sheet. Spread the taco or enchilada sauce on top (as you would ketchup on regular meatloaf.) Bake at 350 degrees until internal temp reaches 165 degrees. You could add an egg and whole wheat bread crumbs if you wanted. But I didn't.
Mexican Fried Rice
Olive oil
1/4-ish cup diced onion
1t minced garlic
1t to 1T diced jalapeno
Leftover rice (brown preferably)
1/2 can black beans
1/2 cup frozen corn kernels
1 small tomato, chopped
Leftover Taco sauce thinned with water
Pepperjack or queso fresco
This is a chop and drop. Olive oil in pan, onions in first until translucent. Then add the garlic and pepper. Season with salt to taste. Add the rice and let it heat through. Put enough of the taco sauce in to make it a little juicy. (I used store bought taco sauce and don't like all the salt in it. So I use just a little and then add some water to help it along.) Add the beans and corn, letting it heat through before you add the tomatoes. I also tossed in a smidge of pepperjack in at the end, but you don't need the cheese at all.
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Jealous ... and Ridiculous
My lovely neighbor is having knee surgery tomorrow. Arthroscopic, to repair or remove torn cartilege in her knee. She hurt herself at work a couple of weeks ago and will be off for six more for recovery.
Knee surgery sucks. Recovery sucks. (And to be honest, it couldn't come at a worse time with the snow they're predicting for tonight.)
But I have to admit to being a little bit jealous.
She's going to get "fixed."
How ridiculous is that?
Knee surgery sucks. Recovery sucks. (And to be honest, it couldn't come at a worse time with the snow they're predicting for tonight.)
But I have to admit to being a little bit jealous.
She's going to get "fixed."
How ridiculous is that?
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
New Year's Diet Plan
I have a full-proof system for not overeating on New Year's Eve and New Year's Day!
After breaking a corner off a lower molar last week, I went to the dentist today. It might take a filling to fix. Or it might take a root canal. And the sooner we can get it taken care of the better.
The earliest available appointment? Yup ... 8 a.m. New Year's Eve.
Guess that will prevent over-snacking.
After breaking a corner off a lower molar last week, I went to the dentist today. It might take a filling to fix. Or it might take a root canal. And the sooner we can get it taken care of the better.
The earliest available appointment? Yup ... 8 a.m. New Year's Eve.
Guess that will prevent over-snacking.
Monday, December 17, 2012
It's Been a While Favorite Things
1. Gingerbread men, from UBakeIt, frosted with melted white chocolate.
2. Pointy toe cowboy boots
3. Venison landjaegers from County E Locker, Albany WI
4. Ruby Red grapefruit
5. Extra-Strength Advil
2. Pointy toe cowboy boots
3. Venison landjaegers from County E Locker, Albany WI
4. Ruby Red grapefruit
5. Extra-Strength Advil
Sunday, December 16, 2012
I'm Tired of Being Hurt
I must be doing something wrong.
I finished my half last spring and felt pretty good. Training wasn't as tough as I thought it would be. I took a week off and thought I'd hit it again.
And life hasn't been the same since.
I spent the summer battling freaking bursitis. I waited too long to go to the doctor thinking the pain would go away with rest. Once I finally did go, I followed doctor's orders and tried PT first. By the time I got the cortisone shot, the summer was over. But it worked. My hip felt good.
The biking and swimming I was doing to give my joints a break seemed like a good idea. But they just were not as enjoyable or as effective as running. They helped me burn calories and stay sane, but they didn't make me happy in the way running did.
So I started slowly, gradually building my miles up. I was trying to be smart. I didn't want to risk not running again. I made sure my form was good. I made sure I only added 10% a week. I was faithful to my PT exercises. I continued swimming and biking to give my joints a rest.
And I felt really good by the time we went on vacation in November. I ran a lot. Six miles a day. By mid-week, my knees started to hurt. So I backed off again. My "bad" knee, the left one, responded well and was ready to go. The right one, however, had other plans. It was killing me. It was wake-me-up-in-the-middle-of-the-night pain. FML.
So I took last week off from running. I medicated with inflammation reducing OTC meds. I stretched. I slept. And by Friday, I felt really good. No pain when I stood up. So I walked 3.5 miles on the treadmill.
And, yup. Pain is back.
I'm so pissed I can't tell you.
Am I being a wuss? Is my head playing tricks on me because I don't "want" to exercise? Should I just suck it up? I don't go to the doctor. Ever. And I've been there more in the past year than I have in the past decade.
Am I going to be able to do this long term? Do I have to give up running? Am I being dramatic? How do you know when it's a "real" issue? I hate feeling like I'm not strong enough to grin and bear the pain. I hate feeling like a complainer. I hate limping to the bathroom in the middle of the night.
Every single person I know who runs says their knees hurt. How do you know if what you feel is a real problem or one you just have to tough out?
I finished my half last spring and felt pretty good. Training wasn't as tough as I thought it would be. I took a week off and thought I'd hit it again.
And life hasn't been the same since.
I spent the summer battling freaking bursitis. I waited too long to go to the doctor thinking the pain would go away with rest. Once I finally did go, I followed doctor's orders and tried PT first. By the time I got the cortisone shot, the summer was over. But it worked. My hip felt good.
The biking and swimming I was doing to give my joints a break seemed like a good idea. But they just were not as enjoyable or as effective as running. They helped me burn calories and stay sane, but they didn't make me happy in the way running did.
So I started slowly, gradually building my miles up. I was trying to be smart. I didn't want to risk not running again. I made sure my form was good. I made sure I only added 10% a week. I was faithful to my PT exercises. I continued swimming and biking to give my joints a rest.
And I felt really good by the time we went on vacation in November. I ran a lot. Six miles a day. By mid-week, my knees started to hurt. So I backed off again. My "bad" knee, the left one, responded well and was ready to go. The right one, however, had other plans. It was killing me. It was wake-me-up-in-the-middle-of-the-night pain. FML.
So I took last week off from running. I medicated with inflammation reducing OTC meds. I stretched. I slept. And by Friday, I felt really good. No pain when I stood up. So I walked 3.5 miles on the treadmill.
And, yup. Pain is back.
I'm so pissed I can't tell you.
Am I being a wuss? Is my head playing tricks on me because I don't "want" to exercise? Should I just suck it up? I don't go to the doctor. Ever. And I've been there more in the past year than I have in the past decade.
Am I going to be able to do this long term? Do I have to give up running? Am I being dramatic? How do you know when it's a "real" issue? I hate feeling like I'm not strong enough to grin and bear the pain. I hate feeling like a complainer. I hate limping to the bathroom in the middle of the night.
Every single person I know who runs says their knees hurt. How do you know if what you feel is a real problem or one you just have to tough out?
Saturday, December 15, 2012
Out of Control
I'm eating.
A lot.
There are times I feel positively possessed. Like I simply can't stop myself from feeding my face. As I'm shoveling it in, my logical brain is thinking about how I shouldn't be doing it. But there's some other part that keeps my hand moving to my mouth.
I like eating. I like everything about eating. I like the process of it ... making it, serving it, moving every bite to my tongue. I like the taste of it ... sweet, salty, spicy. I like the feel of it ... crunchy, smooth, hot, cold.
My defense against this behavior is exercise. As long as I'm moving my ass, I feel almost justified in consuming vast quantities of calories.
This morning I didn't work out. And today, I'm having an eating attack. Not a great combination.
As I eat, I feel such a mix of emotion. Shame, guilt, fear. They consume me.
I know it's an addiction. I know what I'm supposed to do to change the course. I also know how much I hate it. I hate that I have to deal with it. All. The. Damn. Time.
I want this to be easier.
A lot.
There are times I feel positively possessed. Like I simply can't stop myself from feeding my face. As I'm shoveling it in, my logical brain is thinking about how I shouldn't be doing it. But there's some other part that keeps my hand moving to my mouth.
I like eating. I like everything about eating. I like the process of it ... making it, serving it, moving every bite to my tongue. I like the taste of it ... sweet, salty, spicy. I like the feel of it ... crunchy, smooth, hot, cold.
My defense against this behavior is exercise. As long as I'm moving my ass, I feel almost justified in consuming vast quantities of calories.
This morning I didn't work out. And today, I'm having an eating attack. Not a great combination.
As I eat, I feel such a mix of emotion. Shame, guilt, fear. They consume me.
I know it's an addiction. I know what I'm supposed to do to change the course. I also know how much I hate it. I hate that I have to deal with it. All. The. Damn. Time.
I want this to be easier.
Thursday, December 13, 2012
Look Out, Eric Heiden!
OK, my pants are too tight. But I have a theory.
If I'm biking more, a lot more, really, my thighs could be getting bigger for good reasons, right? Do you remember Olympic speed skater Eric Heiden?
Yeah. I'm going to go with that for now.
Though you and I both know it's totally not true.
Eric Heiden's Thighs
If I'm biking more, a lot more, really, my thighs could be getting bigger for good reasons, right? Do you remember Olympic speed skater Eric Heiden?
Yeah. I'm going to go with that for now.
Though you and I both know it's totally not true.
Eric Heiden's Thighs
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